Life......................... | misschrissy's Blog

I've been feeling really bad lately. i always feel sad inside but its been getting worse. I am really stressed out and disappointed in myself. I am struggling to get out of high school and I am 19 years old. I feel like such a failure, not just in school, but also in life. I feel so lonely, even though I have friends and family. I constantly feel alone. I stress out about everything and cry a lot in private or when no one is looking.I feel so overwhelmed by life. I thought i could handle it but I cant. Its really hard and i want to give up. I cant give up because i have to face the world and I don't want to. I want to be happy but I don't know how to be happy.  I know what I want in life but I am still confused about who i am and where i matter in life. its really hard for me to open up to people about what truly goes on inside. I don't want them to judged or look at me differently. I still manage to get it together and pretend when I am with other people. I am good at pretending to be ok.